I hate my shy personality when it comes to taking the first step! Getting closer and friendly with the "people" I admire the most, can be the hardest task to me!
The previous week,I've tested myself with some ppl I've been wanting to get along with, for about 2 months,and didn't succeed yet!!! yeah creepy I know !!!
I socialize with almost every1 except those ppl ! simply cuz they're the ppl I want the most!
I know, I've got issues here, and I need to fix my problem ASAP !
I get nervous , weird and can't talk at all when I'm around them ! okay !they're awesome,talented, and you can't help but respect them... but really I've met a lot of amazing ppl b4 and got no problems at all with mixing with them, so why am I struggling now !
I've missed every single opportunity to talk to them ! srsly why am I like this !!!
Everyone gets a long with them very well ! they're nice creatures ! so why am I so freaked out! I mean I really do like them :(
So as Freud suggested... I've psychoanalyzed myself, and found many outcomes... I'm not gonna talk about them now...but I'll just jump to the solution which I'm gonna try :
I think I kinda feel inferior when I'm around them, cuz as I said, I look up to them! they're simply awesome and creative... So what I'm gonna do is... I'll do my best till I acknowledge myself to be a peer to them...no... till I'm better than them...
Maybe then, I'll naturally and spontaneously communicate with them!
I need to be satisfied about myself first, cuz I've come to realize that I can't get along well with ppl who I "think" r better than me !!!!
but this time I'm not gonna give up ! I really do want to be surrounded with amazing ppl like them... so I'll just do my best !
Allah yi3een x\
P.S I use "they", but actually "they" is only 1 person ! jst thought it would be better to generalize!
